Heal Your Fractured Soul
Hmm… okay, let’s talk about it. Obviously, I'm all about healing and getting to know God and your purpose. Let's talk about what many people are going through, except you are one of those few fortunate golden eggs out there. Healing a fractured soul, what is a fractured soul? When traumatic events such as abuse, neglect, abandonment, rejection, and even witchcraft stunt your growth. I was watching a sermon from Pastor James Kawalya, the ex-Satanist, and I got inspired to write about this. He spoke about how his soul was fractured by watching his uncle being killed in front of him, so he became stunted at 3 years old. This was the doorway that led him down intense wickedness and eventually being taken to become a warlock. When a traumatic event happens to you, your growth is stunted. So, if you were abused at 5 years old, your soul stays at five years old. Your physical body grows, but mentally you're stunted, and what are some side effects of this? Being numb, anxious, terrified, troubled, psychotic, narcissistic, stunted progression in the fruits of your labor, and being nonchalant.
It's an awful thing to happen to anyone. The way you retrieve the broken pieces of your soul that are now bad and tormenting memories is to pray to God and find a safe place to discuss these issues. These are my recommendations; you can always share yours. A lot of times our traumatic memories are buried, but as you get older, unusual things unveil themselves to you, and then you go, “Oh yeah, I remember that from my childhood”. What do you do with that hurt or memory that has encased you in the past? You disassociate yourself from it, you ask God to heal you from it. You find safe spaces to talk it out and release it from your body. You forgive yourself for thinking less of yourself and believing in whatever that trauma caused you. Most importantly, and this can be hard for a lot of people, you forgive the person who harmed you. Why? So you don't have bitterness embedded in you; there's no way to move on from the past if you hold onto it. Now let's get extremely real, what is forgiveness? Forgiveness is letting go, releasing the pain, and not letting it control you. The event, person, place, or thing cannot produce negative reactions from you anymore. Forgiveness does not mean staying with an abuser, granting access to those who hurt you back into your life, or pretending like certain things did not happen. The point is to heal from it where it no longer causes an effect on you. To be totally fair, I personally think removing people, places, and things from your life is perfect. You cannot heal where you were hurt, it's real life, not a movie.
If something traumatic happened to you in your youth or as an adult, my advice to you would be to seek healing from God to help put back your soul and to reject all the negative things that came with it. For some, they think they are not worthy; well, the fact of the matter is you are. For some, they are now anxious and can't do anything because they don't believe in themselves. I promise you so many people believe in you. Some people can't accept love because they are numb. I promise you; you deserve to feel love. It's a great feeling; do not miss out on it, especially when it's from God. If you have a terrible relationship with money and maybe you come from a poor background, poverty is not your calling. From a spiritual standpoint, some of the legal rights these demons and tormenting spirits have are due to your trauma. This is more reason you shouldn't remain a passenger in your hijacked life. Don't let anyone play with you, even spirits. From my understanding, I've learned that the processes of deliverance and healing struggle to function when one remains unhealed. You're chained up and unable to progress until the fractured version of yourself is healed. Without this healing, nothing can function properly.
It is also not your fault. It is my hope for all of you to sit down with yourself, a loved one, and if you are willing, heal. Also, heal your relationship with God. I'm never going to sit here and tell you; you don't need God, I'd be lying. There are things beyond what our human minds and hands can do. Trauma is honestly one of them; you're going to need God to put you back together and make you brand new. So, you smell like a new car. Only God can reach into your mind and stop the cycles of horrible memories and torments. I personally believe a lot of releases will come from talking about it with close ones and sharing if you can. Remember, darkness thrives in secrecy. So do not remain in your reactive state of being mad, being someone who is always in a protesting state, being enraged, feeling shame, fear, disgrace, staying in substance abuse, or even living in fantasy and limerence. Meet yourself outside that trauma and live in the real you.
Psalm 40, 1-3
“I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in him.”
Mary