I Wanted Flowers

He never got me anything for Valentine's Day. Now that I think about it, every time Valentine's Day came around, he was MIA. This was also the case on my birthday, but I want to focus more on Valentine's Day. How the hell did I think this person liked me? How naive and stupid of me. I am not sad about it because this is not a person I would want in my life now. Even then I never really did see good qualities but I was young. Back then it was something to do and I had general love for this person. He took all my time and attention but couldn't even fucking buy me flowers for valentine's day. He wouldn't even say happy valentine's day to me. I'm so disgusted, I'm sure a good amount of us have been through this kind of delusion. How childish. Men like that are childish and women are too kind. I didn't ask for much, because I was so young. Just good vibes, which he never really gave because he is a liar.

The treatment was new to me because before him and after him, I have gotten flowers and been treated well. Even in courtship, I have been treated well. He was one of my few odd experiences. Valentine's Day is literally the day to appreciate the people you care about. Your friends, family, and definitely someone you're intimate with. Basically, he didn't care about anything regarding me. I wish I had done better for myself and not just gone along to get along. Because I didn’t see myself with him in the future. From his character, to how he carried himself, and not to mention his empty pockets. But I was still kind and generous based on our intimate relationship. What a wasted my time, I regret it. I deserved flowers.

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