Why Did I Kiss Him On The Cheek?
I met this guy on my nights out, we would always run into each other. Anyways, I have three vivid embarrassing scenarios that happened to me involving this person. I'm going to come back and write about them on the blog, depending on how I feel after I submit this. I met him in a bar, and we danced a lot together. He had become my designated dance partner every time I went to this particular bar. On this specific day, he decided to walk me to my ride. He held my hand, but he held it the wrong way. Huge red flag! I remember my middle finger being squished and uncomfortable. Not to mention both our hands were sweaty. I didn't say anything but the entire time I was wondering “doesn't he feel how awkward this is?” Why didn't he let go or readjust? I really should have said something, but I kept quiet because I really didn't know this person at the time, and I didn’t want to make him feel stupid.
Anyways, while my right hand was uncomfortable, we walked up this enormous hill to get to my destination. I focused more on maintaining my breathing, so I wouldn't sound like a dying horse and expose how tired I was. Also, it helped me forget my mashed-up hand. We eventually got to the top of the hill and spoke for a bit. I don't remember what the conversation was about nor does it really matter. What mattered was what I did next. At the end of the conversation, I remember kissing him on the cheek. This is cultural for me but knowing him now, and everything that happened within the year and a half we spent together, I am screaming! How embarrassing! He probably laughed at me during his entire walk down the hill. I was too naive and trusting. Now I'm forever humiliated. It might not sound like not a big deal but the way the events played out between us has made me feel this way. I feel It made me look stupid at the time and he probably started plotting against me at that moment. He was a repugnant person overall, which is why I came to this conclusion. I probably looked like fresh meat to him!
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