Twilight Days
It's kind of crazy how I was obsessed with Twilight when I was younger. I remember the first time I watched Twilight was when my then-best friend's older sister rented out the CD. We watched it, and I was sucked in. I wonder if I liked it because I was young or because I actually understood the plot. I think I understood the plot — the typical story of teenage love. Except it wasn't really teenage love, seeing as how he was hundreds of years old. How weird was it to fantasize about being loved by a vampire? I wanted to be a vampire. I remember struggling between Team Werewolf and Team Vampire. I made my final team decision after the second movie: I was 100% vampire. Us young girls, and maybe even boys, were out there fighting about what creatures we would be and support.
When Edward would glisten in the sun, I thought it was the coolest thing ever. Now I can laugh at myself a little bit. How unrealistic is it to want to have a high school romantic relationship with a vampire? That was the pinnacle of love in those days for me. I read all the books and waited with zeal for each movie. It never got old; I never got tired of waiting. I loved the dark gloominess of the first movie and how awkward Bella was. This poor traumatized girl who lived with her father in a small dark town — oh, how I felt so bad for her. Then here comes her hero, a vampire who would eventually have to bite her to save her life. When I think about it now, her life wasn’t that miserable. She was just annoying and bored. But wait, not her actually kind of liking her best friend Jacob, and Jacob liking her. Who could protect her more, the native wolves or the rich, successful immigrant vampire family? What were they even protecting her from? From my grown perspective, she involved herself in a lot of things she didn't have to be involved in. But she couldn't resist the love and the attraction to Edward. Lol, I mean, how could she? Do you remember the scene when the car was gonna slam her into a pancake and Edward stopped it with his ONE SINGLE arm? While he gave off the most cringy deadly bad boy eyes at the camera. How we all melted along with Bella.
Not the vampires, running through the woods like they were on fast conveyor belts. Who remembers when Bella had to snuggle up with Jacob because Edward couldn't keep her warm, and Jacob was literally the only key to her survival since she was going to freeze to death? The drama of being caught between two bad boys, lol. I am literally laughing so hard writing about this. This is why a lot of us girlies didn't have common sense because this is what we used to watch and look up to. Nothing wrong with it though, it was cute for what it was! But in reality, I would never want a relationship with a vampire or to be bitten by one either. I would never hide my vampire boyfriend in my house from my dad! I wouldn't want my boyfriend's family member to have to control himself so hard to the point his eyes couldn’t stay in his head, because the smell of my blood was driving him crazy. I'm talking about Jasper. Who's to say Edward could have really stopped him if he couldn't control himself? Bella would have been lunch! I'm glad the bond was strong between them because Jasper looked shocked every time he saw her. He looked like, "Why is my dinner walking around in my house?"
The way they made us feel bad for these vampires, gave them such tragic backgrounds and reasons for being turned into vampires. Edward almost dying from the Spanish influenza and having to be turned into a vampire — such a heartbreaking story. I know Bella ate that up. It wasn't until now that I questioned why they were in high school. They literally had no reason. I guess it was part of the façade, a happy couple with all their litter of children that look nothing alike. In my opinion, they could have just gotten jobs and been adults, but hey, they are rich so they could do what they want.
Bella's pretty strong (and this is not a compliment). I mean, in the beginning, Edward was struggling not to chew her neck off, and she loved it. She loved every bit of that attention. Bella needed therapy and her parents couldn’t see it. I mean, if I felt my boyfriend's eyes on my neck that intensely, I'd be scared. I knew Bella was not all right in the head when he exposed himself in raw diamond form and she didn't care. She was down from day one. She was down for the drama, she was down to be saved, and she was down to cause trouble.
Twilight is almost a rite of passage for us girls and for those few gentlemen out there. It's just fun reminiscing about this very impactful time in my life. I am not a Bella. Over the years, that fantasy nonsense is not appealing to me anymore. I don't want to date vampires. Thank God for growth and pure common sense.
2 Timothy 1:7 - For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind
Mary