Receive With Grace

Sometimes it’s hard to accept help, especially when you have spent a good chunk of your life being disappointed. You get so used to being your only lifeline, which is great in my opinion. Who wants to have to question if someone else will pull through for them? Definitely not me. Yet, I find you can block your own blessings by being too self-sufficient and closed off. There are other reliable people in the world. People who won't lie about helping you, people who actually want to help you, people who don't have ulterior motives when they help you, and most importantly people who can actually help you. These people are just rare to find. Over the years I find, I am more open to reliable help. Despite being burned by people so many times. I guess this is because I have been burnt out so many times and deep down I still have the human instinct to cry out for help.

I have given genuine help to others, so I believe I deserve the same type of nurture. I have definitely come to welcome the soft life. I am not a machine, nor do I want to be. So, I receive aid with open arms when it's offered now. The scariest part, I also ask for help. After all these years of never letting myself down, I am open to being “served.” The bizarre outcome of a self-sufficient advocate.

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