The Luxury Of Being Alone

I know we all see those relationship quotes, and they're lovely. And I think relationships are lovely, and they play a vital role in one's life experience. If you can have a fulfilling relationship, then you should experience it to the fullest. But sometimes I worry that the luxury of being alone can be taken away from me. I'm slowly preparing myself to be open for a relationship because that is my end goal. Truthfully, I get sad because I think about the things I might have to give up, just silly little things. My space, being in the moment with myself, and occupying my apartment. Not having to worry if there's somebody else in the room. The luxury to be me, at my fullest capacity. I am not saying that I won't be myself in a relationship. The safety I find in doing little things by myself in my introverted way, like always coming back to my favorite spot on the couch because there's nobody else to sit in it but me. Objects arranged to my liking without any compromise. Having my air set at 65 degrees Celsius and not having to change it for anybody. Being on my own schedule and not making time to accommodate another person. The silence I need sometimes to reprocess my emotions. I know all these things can be done with another person by your side, but huh… singleness is luxurious.

Pearl